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Autumn Notes 2.0
So I’m sitting in bed watching #LivePD, working on my A new mini blanket in rainbow yarn from Mary Maxim. Tonight I spoke with two old friends both hold a very significant place in my heart. Lately I’ve had emotion from the past where I have not gotten over certain things from my past. The death of my dad back in 2008 really threw me for a loop and I’ve never really been the same since then. I never really got to say goodbye a.m. and that really really bothers me. Even though he knew that I loved him and I knew/know that he loves me. I know that he loves me and I know that he’s watching every step of what I’m doing. That in itself gives me comfort and I know that he is watching over me my mom and everybody else associated with my family. Anyway one of these days I’m going to write a letter telling him everything that I never got to say. But in other news my life itself is good because I have friends I have family who care about me and that’s what matters aside from myself doing things that make me happy whether it be aromatherapy or collecting yarn. When I collect yarn it’s usually because it’s a memory clicker.For example, The cotton yarn reminds me of my late nana. She taught me how to knit when I was a teenager & When I knit I escape to a different place and I’m happier because I’m being creative. Having two projects on the needle at once can be challenging but I don’t mind the challenges In life. I was thinking about my future last night and interesting plans ahead for sure. I’ve been thinking about the future alot, what I want and what I can achieve. I know I’ve always had a pipe dream of living in a tiny house and watching #TinyHouseNation has given me Great inspirations but I know I’m not going to be able to do a tiny house community living situation but I think I would be able to “make a list“ of what I definitely need. That list would include my two pups, my yarn stash W/accessories. Also I would need my iPhone/MacBook with iPads, obviously I’m going to need Wi-Fi capabilities and possibly a television set for certain things I would want to watch not necessarily the news because we oh no that there is not a lot of #FakeNews and bullshit stories out there. I would not know if I want to do ala cart
The stations or what. I definitely would like a queen bed or a king bed maybe a full-size depending on how big of a space but I would also need an adequate space for my canines. Bedding etc. another thing I have been researching a little bit because of my anxiety which I get very frustrated when there is new things happening and when there’s schedule screwup’s etc. is whether my anxiety is related to Asperger’s syndrome -I found something online that links my social anxiety along with my regular anxiety to the situation haven the fact that I have a better social life online then I do in real life many things lineup for the Asperger’s Syndrome with regard to my anxiety, I’m finding aromatherapy very calming. Also the in life socialization is better for me when it’s a small group of people and I know them it’s easier for me to talk to them-I’ve always had trouble speaking in public to large groups or in front of. I know I hate labeling myself looking down on myself because I’m not like other people in the world who are social butterflies in real life. I find it easier to socialize on line because in some situations I get self-conscious. As for my chihuahua, she’s growing up too fast, she’s almost 1 year old and I’m thankful that she’s always going to be small. The final thought of the evening is my next iPhone, I’m looking at both the 7 & 8. Both are the same price with 64 gigabytes. Tonight is going to be television and knitting as usual. If I find anymore interesting things to share with y’all, I’ll start another entry/share another article.

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