In a matter of days or weeks I’m not sure which I will be writing several lectures-it is a therapy exercise and was suggested by a friend-these letters are going to contain certain situations so that I am able to purge them from my memory. So that I can move forward with life. Over the past couple days I realize that something could’ve happened in my life we’re not because of the people I soak all blamed it was because of things that happened in my childhood. My childhood was not the best and summer guards and their somethings I do not remember at all but then there some things I remember bits and pieces. Waiting makes me feel better it releases energy and it releases angst anxiety etc. so I just wanted to give a heads up in case things get a little weird. Anyway going to continue my day of netting and relaxing with my puppies.