Good evening and welcome to the next chapter, this morning I was at the mall-I exchanged the sculpting palette for some tools and two other products. I purchased a gold eyeliner also another lip color and this evening I purchased some disposable lip applicators and sponges from Amazon so I have enough tools and cosmetics for a while or at least I hope. Last night I was entertained some by #CopsTV & #TeenMom2- I have a lot to say about the #TeenMomFranchise: When the whole thing started, it was a mission to teach young women and young men the struggles of becoming teenage parents -Fast-forward almost 10 years later and it turned into the daily weekly sitcom drama and even though we’ve gotten to see The teen mom kids grow up, it’s just a whole shit show of dramatic craziness and well I enjoy keeping tabs on their lives I really don’t think that the show itself is productive anymore especially when they have a new teen mom series#YoungAndPregnant- haven’t young people learned a damn thing that being a teenage parent is not easy it’s not fun it’s not glamorous it’s a 24 hour job that you cannot do on your own unless you’re really really filthy rich. Granted I do enjoy following half of the original girls and half of volume two but the rest of it is fucking drama central. Especially when it comes to Jenelle, Briana and I hate to say this but Tyler and Catelynn. Everybody on Twitter as the rite to throw their own two cents into the pond of thoughts. That is the breeding ground of rumors and crazy talk and it’s just not the MTV shows they get the rumors and crazy talk lately. The moms who have settled down into a routine and made their lives better outside of MTV and those who don’t depend on MTV to pay the bills. The DeBoers & The McKinneys plus Amber Portwood & Andrew Glennon. The three couples at the end are the ones that I still paid engine to do and give a damn about because they have their shit together properly and don’t necessarily rely on teen mom and MTV to pay the bills granted if it weren’t for MTV we wouldn’t know any of these people and we wouldn’t follow them like their long lost family-just remember just because we see them on a regular basis on the Internet and get to know what’s happening in the world does not mean that we know everything that goes on when they are not on Twitter on Facebook on TV-there’s a lot of shit that goes down that nobody knows about. OK I’m sorry I’m preaching but it’s just how I feel about certain things and very strong headed and very strong minded. I was also thinking about my life as I have been going too many things last 10 years specifically where it’s been good it’s been bad it’s been ugly but it’s been fun in some cases. There are things that I need to put in the past places I may never go again in my life some of those places I grew up that meant a lot to me. I will always love the United States Virgin Islands I will always have fond memories of living on island I was blessed to have a home in the islands from 1985 to 2011- but I’ve decided that I need to stop living in the past because It’s not healthy for me which probably means several things in life aren’t healthy for us. I need to lose weight because I feel like crap health wise and I’m just literally putting lipstick on a pig. I’m a pretty pig but pig none the less. People say I’m pretty etc but they don’t understand my struggles with how I look/feel about myself. I love myself but am I completely happy with myself:absolutely not. So many things I’d love to change. The extra weight I’ve gained over the past years makes me feel uncomfortable with my appearance. I’m not that type of big girl who’s okay with it. I don’t like being big. I’d love to be back at 130 lbs. I could definitely be tempted to do liposuction or bodyscupting if it were safe and affordable but it is what it is. I’m going to bed soon. Thx for letting me vent.