Ok, so I just returned home from my workout and lunch date with friends. I’ve done a little bit more research about the pre-workout phenomenon and when you come down to the bottom line; it is not something that I want to continue. I have realized that there are a shit load of things in a “pre-work out“ that I don’t need/want-mainly sucralose which is a sugar type of product which contradictory to the company telling me what that tingly and bloating is all about-I am not interested. I don’t want to have tingles and bloating after a workout when working out is my way of getting out stress energy etc. #IDoNotNeedIt. Nor do I want it, I don’t mind doing promotions in the way of sharing posts etc. for any nutrition company I don’t mind I will take one for my team and do out of the goodness of my heart but I am not going to fall prey to another company whether you are long-term established or just off the turnip truck. Sucralose is not your friend nor do I think any pre-workout is really necessary if you’re a beginner or whatever. And less you’re pulling a damn tractor trailer you don’t need it. I’m gonna stick with my protein cookies and my flavored water because that’s what my body likes, my body likes ingredients that I can pronounce haven that I know what it is; I don’t want to have to Google an ingredient name just to know what I’m consuming in my body. On top of that-I’m on an anti-anxiety medication-How the hell is sucralose going to affect my aunt anxiety medication in the long line is it going to affect my autism in the long run. My anxiety and my autism is not something I’m willing to mess with just to get better performance in the gym. I’m sorry to those that I am not going to be working with on a regular basis but my health and my sanity are more important than a damn ambassador gig. I’m open to any ambassadorship /promotional gig except if it’s one that’s gonna fuck with my health. Anyway for the first time in a while, I’m actually sitting in my bedroom-not going to sleep here I don’t think but life is good I am happy my dogs are happy and that’s really what freaking matters in life is my happiness. So I am going to return to normal life as a spokesperson/promotional influencer etc. for companies that I get enjoyment from their product. I do enjoy working with all companies but I don’t really find nutritional supplement companies my cup of tea.