415 JE

  Good morning and it has been forever since I’ve done a journal entry, I wonder if this one will reach the post or not. I am walking around #5Below because I don’t want to go out in the big part of the mall right now and I am just relaxing and browsing. I got on my scale yesterday and this morning for the first time with the app activated and I am exactly where I thought I would be unfortunately I need to lose 20 pounds but the good thing is my partner loves me regardless which I knew he would. I am very blessed to have an amazing life partner Who is amazing and absolutely the best thing that’s happened to me in several years aside from my sweet Chihuahua.  I have been taking a sabbatical from Facebook and other crazy social media platforms because I cannot stand it anymore how crazy the world has gotten it’s absolutely disturbing and disgusting. The police brutality the racism the unnecessary chaos. We are in the same place we were 30 years ago with racism and hatred and on the outside, it may look like we’ve progressed but in reality, we have not. In the past several weeks I have had big issues with my anxiety and depression because of circumstance I don’t know if it’s because of Covid/lockdown restrictions whatever it is I need it to stop. I’m very happy that I’m going to my doctor today to talk about all kinds of things. I am very blessed to have connections on Instagram that have sustained my mental health but now it’s time to bring out the big guns. There are things that I’ve done that have helped my anxiety like bringing my knitting everywhere and I mean everywhere regardless if I need it or not it is with me. I am not doing as much exercise today because I don’t want to wear myself out before I need energy this afternoon so I’m going to sit and craft and do this dictation. I know I used to love the shopping mall I know I used to love intermingling with people on a small scale but that is since left the building of familiar comfort because everybody has a different opinion on what should be happening with personal protection equipment whether they choose to wear it or not wear it or where in properly. I always have my coffee with me or a beverage of some sort so I’m not always masked up but I have it. Right now in my knitting bag, there are three projects and I’m going to hopefully be done with all of them by the time summer hits. Speaking of summer I look forward to having a great summer and the rest of spring.  In the rant above, I said something about how the world has gone to hell and it’s true regardless of what president regardless of what administration this world has gone to shit and our freedom and liberty, etc. is on the chopping block It’s disgusting that our history is being ruined because people are uncomfortable it’s disgusting that our monuments are landmarks are being destroyed because people are uncomfortable it’s part of our history as a country to have Confederate monuments we have or had. former presidential monuments to have all the things we have or had. So even though I feel like there’s more in my system that I want to say I’m going to leave it short like this because I can guarantee there will be another chapter of my rants. So until next time folks thanks for following my crazy blog thanks for listening to my random thoughts and interesting articles I will talk to you soon.