Brad Keselowski believes NASCAR should be handing out more penalties to send a message to the NASCAR Cup Series garage, and revealed that RFK Racing responded to his L2 penalty earlier this year by communicating across the team that it needed to stop playing games with the race cars.
— Read on racer.com/2022/08/02/nascar-should-be-handing-out-penalties-like-candy-keselowski/
OK, so the other day I published one of these little pieces on how I feel about yarn companies.it’s always been a love-hate relationship it’s always been me trying to find the best quality for the best price and over the years, unfortunately, I have been scammed over charged double-charged you many crafters probably have several sources of where they get their product. And I have several outlets I shop for yarn at. name it’s probably happened. many crafters probably have several sources of where they get their product. And I have several outlets I shop for yarn at. but with the above said about scams overcharging etc. I am going to be deleting Amazon from my shopping destinations because of situations that I don’t think are under my control but I wanted to put this out there if I ever post a project and you never see the result, The reason is it probably literally went to the dogs. even though one is probably a short scarf and can be salvaged for donation the other one is sitting next to me under the dog’s butt. At the time of this Journal entry, I have two different super saver scarves in the works. Hopefully you guys will see the end of these or the final result. Thank you for your understanding and thank you for your patience support and reading my craziness
Hello and I have been thinking about this for a very long time, I have been going through my yarn inventory and discovering many things. The fact that red heart super saver has two different sizes. If you’re buying solid colors you get 7 ounces but if you buy the variegated colors you only get 5 ounces. I haven’t looked at the difference between solid and variegated colors when it comes to the specialty lines. Most of those are 4 ounces regardless of what you’re getting. I have a strong stash of cakes of skeins etc. not only do I have probably dozens of 5-ounce skeins from different companies but I have 3.5 ounce balls I have 4 ounce balls. I don’t discriminate unless you are wool because I’m allergic to you. The point is that yarn comes in different shapes different colors different sizes all good as long as the quality matches the array of color availability which unfortunately it doesn’t. I’ve had yarn it is a crap quality I’ve had yarn that is amazing quality. Sometimes I buy multiple units of one color weight I buy single units all depends but I do have certain colors I am in love with and I will super stock. Another curious thing here is why are there certain colorways that only come in 5 ounces. There are some beautiful colors that I have in my stash that I would love in a jumbo skein but no I can’t find it. So there I am buying 3 to 6 may be more of a single color at 5 ounces because I love it and I need it in my stash. Recently I decided I’m going to try and do more one-of-a-kind items that would only require me to buy one or two units of a particular colorway but if I like you enough I will buy more of you. I have given away yarn in the past that I wasn’t able to work with but there’s been yarn that I have kept because I love it and I want to learn to work with it. That being said I have just acquired a taste shall we say more of a single color at 5 ounces because I love it and I need it in my stash. Recently I decided I’m going to try and do more one-of-a-kind items that would only require me to buy one or two units of a particular colorway but if I like you enough I will buy more of you. I have given away yarn in the past that I wasn’t able to work with but there’s been yarn that I have kept because I love it and I want to learn to work with it. That being said I have just acquired a taste shall we say for that lightweight while I’m on that subject of bike rafting/DK yarn. So I have done a little extra purchasing of certain materials. I also wanted to make note that there are recommendations on every jacket of yarn suggesting what needle size what hook size etc. and I think that’s misleading only because everybody is different with their stitching style. For me example, I am a loose knitter but a tight crocheter. While I’m on that subject of crafting, the Cotton yarn I love you you are amazing but you crochet very tightly. The acrylic yarn I love you too you crochet very stiff. Not that tight and stiff is bad when it comes to knitting or crochet but when you don’t expect it it’s a pain in the ass which is why I tend to stick to my knitting and my knitting methods are going down A needle size or two depending on what material I’m working with depending on what your weight I’m working with and back on the how many units to buy for a project-I appreciate certain companies listing how many units will need for accomplishing a project. Wish every company was like that #LionBrandYarn’s you all are the bomb in many ways. Going on to store brand versus not store-brand, I was not a big fan of store brand at the beginning of my career because I always like the cheaper the yarn the worst quality unfortunately / fortunately That’s not true anymore because I can get quality store-brand if I know what I’m looking for. I’m also noticing that store brands are going to go to toe with name brands in the different colors and varieties available which I appreciate. Anyhow that’s all for this rant of a journal entry. Going back to my craft going back to scheduling articles etc. have a great day.
Dear friends, recently I’ve been triggered to remember some childhood memories about my wonderful late dad. he was a stockbroker for Merrill Lynch and also E.F. Hutton. I have been diving into the past of E.F. Hutton within the past few days weeks and I knowsome shadiness I know about the scandals I know of the lawsuits and I’m not quite sure why the company wants to be reborn almost 12 years after it was put to bed or now it’s been 12 years it was originally 1904 until 2012 it is now 2022 and the company re-launched in 2020 I don’t know why if people get their research properly they wouldn’t want to work for or do business with the company. why associate yourself with negative. With that said, I know Ive been using wikipedia articles as my source. I do’nt think bringing a company back to life using the old name was a wise idea but what do I know, I was born & raised in an time where most people did things somewhat ethically.
Good morning and it has been forever since I’ve done a journal entry, I wonder if this one will reach the post or not. I am walking around #5Below because I don’t want to go out in the big part of the mall right now and I am just relaxing and browsing. I got on my scale yesterday and this morning for the first time with the app activated and I am exactly where I thought I would be unfortunately I need to lose 20 pounds but the good thing is my partner loves me regardless which I knew he would. I am very blessed to have an amazing life partner Who is amazing and absolutely the best thing that’s happened to me in several years aside from my sweet Chihuahua. I have been taking a sabbatical from Facebook and other crazy social media platforms because I cannot stand it anymore how crazy the world has gotten it’s absolutely disturbing and disgusting. The police brutality the racism the unnecessary chaos. We are in the same place we were 30 years ago with racism and hatred and on the outside, it may look like we’ve progressed but in reality, we have not. In the past several weeks I have had big issues with my anxiety and depression because of circumstance I don’t know if it’s because of Covid/lockdown restrictions whatever it is I need it to stop. I’m very happy that I’m going to my doctor today to talk about all kinds of things. I am very blessed to have connections on Instagram that have sustained my mental health but now it’s time to bring out the big guns. There are things that I’ve done that have helped my anxiety like bringing my knitting everywhere and I mean everywhere regardless if I need it or not it is with me. I am not doing as much exercise today because I don’t want to wear myself out before I need energy this afternoon so I’m going to sit and craft and do this dictation. I know I used to love the shopping mall I know I used to love intermingling with people on a small scale but that is since left the building of familiar comfort because everybody has a different opinion on what should be happening with personal protection equipment whether they choose to wear it or not wear it or where in properly. I always have my coffee with me or a beverage of some sort so I’m not always masked up but I have it. Right now in my knitting bag, there are three projects and I’m going to hopefully be done with all of them by the time summer hits. Speaking of summer I look forward to having a great summer and the rest of spring. In the rant above, I said something about how the world has gone to hell and it’s true regardless of what president regardless of what administration this world has gone to shit and our freedom and liberty, etc. is on the chopping block It’s disgusting that our history is being ruined because people are uncomfortable it’s disgusting that our monuments are landmarks are being destroyed because people are uncomfortable it’s part of our history as a country to have Confederate monuments we have or had. former presidential monuments to have all the things we have or had. So even though I feel like there’s more in my system that I want to say I’m going to leave it short like this because I can guarantee there will be another chapter of my rants. So until next time folks thanks for following my crazy blog thanks for listening to my random thoughts and interesting articles I will talk to you soon.
Dear readers, I am very disappointed with the riots in Washington, D.C. Those who stormed the US Capitol were definitely wrong. Also the Democrats are definitely wrong as is Hollywood for calling on social media to block Mr. president but on the other hand maybe it’s necessary right now. He has a loose cannon and the reason I voted for him is because I was against the opposition I amRegistered Republican but that does not mean I agree with everything. It makes me sick that people think it’s OK to do what they did inin reality of that four people were killed and 52 arrests were made. There was nothing peaceful or OK with what happened the past 24 hours Washington DC in reality of that four people were killed and 52 arrests were made. There was nothing peaceful or OK with what happened the past 24 hours. I understand Hollywood has a right to speak out but I think celebrities need to shut the fuck up unless they have a career choice to go into politics. Just like we did with Barack Obama we made it through that and we will make it through the Biden administration. But keep in mind President Biden is a puppet for the Democrats for the Democratic extremists. I’ll be taking a break from posting extra things I will be scheduling but I am going to try and focus on my sanity. Thank you for following me I appreciate every single one of you.
OK as I said in the last blog #Journal101.1, I had some things to talk about with regard to online shopping from small businesses and also my coming out of the closet. Small business shopping-I will shop small when I can if you have a product I want and it is a reasonable price I will purchase but I believe strongly that if you have an online business you must have it registered you must be able to prove the paperwork and you must have fair shipping guidelines etc. Do not jack up the price of shipping or any item. If I purchase an item if I claim an item that I want- I don’t fucking expect the bill to be over $500 or over $300 when it’s all said and done that’s including shipping I’m not gonna pay fucking $55 for shipping and I’m going to check where you’re located versus where are you say you’re located this particular shop that screwed me over and blocked me said she was in Ohio moving to Texas but she’s really in Virginia she has no paperwork I didn’t business cards and her PayPal footer. I’m smarter than she thinks I am. With regard to me and the closet, I have always had a minor interest in women but never enough to act on and people have said since I will be able that but I should explore that side If I have an opportunity. I don’t know if I want to because it’s not strong enough to explore. I have certain standards and I am not found anyone who holds up to those standards in any gender right now. So I have 99 problems and being bicurious isn’t really a problem so I guess I have 100 and no problems. But I do say it does feel good become totally clean with the witchcraft with the LGBTQ and we don’t know about autism and OCD and anxiety. There are plenty of shirts out there plenty of things out there I could adopt from pride but I’m not going to because that’s not me it’s prideful enough without wearing the clothing. But I hate afraid to wear the rainbow let’s just put it that way I have always loved rainbow. With regard to my weight gain, #FuckYouCovid, and quarantine, but I have cut back extreme on the snacking and the choices that go in my mouth. I will get back to 160 it’s just gonna take time. I know I want to be lighter than 160 but right now my goal is 160. With regard to relationships in general, there is not any interest right now I am social and that’s the way it’s gonna be especially in the times were living in. People are always complaining that they have not been out on a date that they have not been asked to dinner etc.-do you not understand that we are in the middle of a health crisis and life is not going to be normal the way it was ever again and it’s sad especially for the economy my mind because my mall it’s not as thriving as it was back in March. Many stores have shifted their strategies and there are many quiet storefronts. A little birdie told me yesterday that there are at least six stores that have shifted to online only and they are using their storefronts here as fulfillment centers. So it has been a hot minute since I wrote anything but that’s cause I have been busy with life. Instead of just talking about it, I’ve been living in it. I remember what got this entry rolling & it was online shopping. Yes, I am still purchasing online and no it’s not going to stop just because of a few sour apples. No longer will I trust any business that doesn’t have verified credentials. In the past few weeks ago, I got a new pair of Crocs. The Rainbow tie-dye version. I had a lavender pair in the past which I can’t seem to be able to fin. Thanks to Poshmark, I was able to get three more sets. The grey with fuzz trim arrived but I am waiting for the watermelon and a new pair of lavender. In the meantime, I have gotten a few more pieces of selenite and other crystals. Most from my dealer in Virginia and some local. Today specifically was kind of fun because I finally decided to join the ”James Charles Sisters Community ” with the purchase of the •mini artistry palette• also I got my paws on some new yarn. So I’m excited to play with the beautiful makeup and yarn. I’m going to be shifting away from the Red Heart yarns because honestly, they are crappy – Crappy but I still use it because I have it in stock, I am thinking about sending some unused overflow yarn to Wisconsin because #JonahLarson could probably use some fan support at the moment even though he has a deal with one of the biggest yarn companies in the country. I have been silent on the journal front even though I have been working on the blog editing and scheduling, I have been quiet because I have been living my life and not telling everybody every damn thing that happens. Living life and enjoying my family friends etc. I remember not long ago I posted about relationships and how I never thought I would find the “perfect relationship“ but I don’t think there is such a thing as a perfect relationship but to find the “perfect partner“ for you is possible. I was not looking for a relationship per se but I found one and I’m happy – apparently, I have a thing for “blue-collar guys“ but that doesn’t bother me because I’m not in it for money or fame or anything I’m in it for the heart. My guy is a sweetheart and I couldn’t be more thankful. We have been together for a month but it feels like much longer than that we are a very good match for each other we connect on a mental emotional and physical level-he is not a model or celebrity style but I don’t give two shits because we have a bond that we’ve had since the first five minutes and I never would’ve guessed that a well-being message would turn into a relationship. Speaking of relationships, good ole Jeffree Star doesn’t waste much fucking time literally figuratively jumping from relationship with Nathan to a new one with somebody that I don’t know of course I don’t know Nathan either but apparently, his new partner has an ex-girlfriend that is shocked that her former lover decided to bed down with Jeffree Lynn! To be honest, I wouldn’t want my ex or maybe I would want them to bed down with that being but speaking of my exes, I am not speaking to one and on the verge of not speaking to the other because what do I need to be my life for when I have moved on? Come September I am hoping and praying that I can start saving money because living on the skids isn’t something I’m particularly fond of.
Richard Petty Motorsports is making a big push to keep the 26-year-old. Bob Pockrass breaks down the possible pros and cons.
— Read on www.foxsports.com/stories/nascar/bubba-wallace-nascar-owner
I have been thinking a lot lately about all the covididiots and celebrities who have been speaking out about the GOP , here’s what I am feeling: instead of fucking up the county I love, please get outta my homeland, I was born & raised in the city of brotherly love & it’s making me sick to see how it’s going to hell in a hand basket. If you’re happier in another country or continent- please go back. There’s nothing telling you to remain here. On this day that we lost Charlie Daniels, I’m thinking about everything going on today and this world is changing at a rapid pace! Some of it good and some of it not. Bless all first responders and essential workers who are working their asses off to keep us going and safe as humanly possible. By the way, in Pennsylvania I know we’re going to be masking up indefinitely and that’s just fine with me. I am going to be just fine as long as I am able to get fresh air & keep my sanity. What this world needs is a few more rednecks. OK so I just wanted to put my two cents in about #JeffreeStarCosmetics and the break up with #MorpheBrushes. Hallelujah thank you Gods, they say it couldn’t be done and they said it wouldn’t happen but hell has frozen over for Jeffree Star and I couldn’t be happier. I am a former #StarFamily member. I am going to use what product I have left which is a ton. I am not throwing out expensive make up regardless because I paid for it I’m going to use it. The other thing I am going to be very curious about is the relationship with #LipstickNick. She is heavily involved in Morphe and I love her but that can only be said for certain things I love her artistry I love her charisma but I unfollowed her because of her affiliation with Mr. Diva. I’m not sure how the employees of Morphe i’m going to feel because I know some of them love #JSC. Another thing I have decided to boycott still is Starbucks, many reasons why I’m unhappy with them. Between the tampering with police officers beverages and their issue with certain groups it is a problem with me also the situation that I posted on Instagram from Sophie Perry, I know it’s individual employees that are doing this but as a company it does not look good and it’s disgusting. Racism and hatred have zero place in this community. OK so it’s been a few days and a lot of shit has happened, #JeffreeStar made a sad sad attempt at apologizing and plugged his upcoming releases with #JeffreeStarCosmetics claiming that all this bullshit will never happen again and I knew right after it was published that he would get shit for the fake apology which he has and he has subsequently deleted certain social media posts. I like it much better when it was radio silence. Another thing that has happened was soliciting in the King of Prussia Mall now those of us with common sense no that soliciting is persona non grata. But I believe it was Thursday that I was asked by some random Yahoo with no social distancing no PPE if I had a dollar and then I was asked if I believe in Jesus. two things you do not ask anybody especially a solitary neurodivergent witch. Needless to say this made me feel very uncomfortable and since my Destiination was yet to open I disappeared into another venue and gather my thoughts and my sanity. #6Feet apart #MaskItOrCasket and it’s getting really fucking annoying seeing people not wearing their PPE properly, it goes over the nose asshole. And if you are unable to wear PPE and stay the fuck home or have someone do your shopping for you. I have asthma I have anxiety and I’m still wearing a mask it doesn’t bother me one iota. The next thing on the menu of my brain it is the Malay at the mall on Friday, holy fucking smokes. . The police report does not do it justice and I am very thankful I have friends who work in the mall because the police report is not thorough and leaves out detail. There was indeed guns and knives involved I don’t know if anybody was shot or not stabbed or not but they were there and having this crap happened in my neighborhood #NotAHappyGirl Anyway NASCAR is evolving and I have a new appreciation for Austin Dillon. The three car is definitely something that I have had mixed feelings about ever since we lost Dale Sr and I remember asking Kelley Earnhardt The family’s opinion. And I got to be honest it was awesome seeing the number three car back in victory Lane at Texas last night. Even though the sport has had its ups and downs since it returned from The coronavirus hiatus, I am a fan and I have been since 2002-I ain’t going anywhere. As for my blog updates, yes I know some of it is past dated and scheduled I’m doing that intentionally because I want people to remember certain things that happened. I had something on my mind last night, I don’t fully remember what it is but I just heard that there are many stores in the King of Prussia Mall that are not re-opening to the public at least six are either closing or being used as fulfillment centers for online shopping. With regard to my Instagram situation, I have turned off comments on the apothecary post And I will be writing another blog about it. I am very thankful that I have my Etsy retailers etc. I am praying for this country both socially and economically it doesn’t look good. OK so I slept a lot of yesterday because I want to adjust my schedule to the queen schedule and last night went smoother because I had slept and I was not the cranky or NOM. Needless to say I did not get very many blogs scheduled or posted also I had forgotten to charge the iPad but it is charged and I am going to be working today on updating or I have not done so life will be good again I have not missed a day in over a year or almost a year so I’m very proud of my work. There is another journal entry coming on the topic of online shopping. I still have my reservations about certain things because I was blindsided by the last incident and it was the first incident I had with regard to an Instagram shopping of small business. I like shopping small when possible but I will call you out very often and very loudly if you screw with me. I’m also going to discuss my closet or coming out of the closet shall we say in the next journal entry.
Good morning ladies and gentlemen, I am doing my regular activities today but looking forward to my zoom meeting and also another NASCAR event. I have to do a little more ranting about Kyle Busch and Jeffree Star Just because I have a never ending line of thoughts. I still cannot stand Kyle Busch regardless of what his #RowdyNation has to say about him – he is an OK guy off the track I’ll give him that but he’s on track Prasanna-I don’t like it. His attitude towards his competition is ugly, his interviews are explosive And he is just an ugly ugly person on track and less he gets his way. I am very happy when he gets his ass beat either way. Same can go with Joey Logano. They’re both whiny they’re both immature and they need to be put in their place. Yesterday and the day before I thought about the fact that there needs to be some sort of control over Cup drivers partying with the Xfinity drivers on track but now I think that there also needs to be rules and regulations about cop drivers intermingling in the truck series as well. Regardless of who owns what. There are some drivers that are too dominant to be allowed to come mingle. Another thing that is annoying the shit out of me right now it is every time there is a police involved incident whether it be a shooting or an arrest-somebody is going to get pissed and start a riot-currently it is in the state of Minnesota I believe. There was an arrest made and officers were not the same race as the suspect therefore it becomes an issue and in this particular case I do believe there was excessive force which in particular cases I deem that excessive and unnecessary. I know the officers are taught how to subdue a suspect to put pressure on certain parts but in this case it turned fatal. I am going to go through and find articles to support this opinion blog. With regard to quarantine and COVID-19-for the love of all things holy in any religion or spiritual belief I have had enough-I understand completely why we are quarantining why we are staying home why it is deemed to be safer at home and I am blessed to be in a position where I can stay home where I am not technically A “front lines worker“ With regard to the voting situation I am frustrated because in that regard I am a public servant and I have not heard anything from the bosses. I don’t know if my jurisdiction is intact open or not. After my walk, I got to do a little retail therapy at target, got some shampoo got some dog treats etc. it really felt good to get out there and be with humans again but at the same time, I don’t want to be in large groups at the moment. I got some pretty awesome shampoo. From my friends at #PacificaBeauty, #SaltyWaves- Beach hair is what I go for tropical scents. I visited the website and there are definitely some things that I want. There’s two pallets in my cart and have a little magic connection which I’m all about the magic connection and sometimes I don’t care if I have the color already it’s about trying different formulas and supporting companies that you love. We all know that I will not be spending money with #JeffreeStarCosmetics/#JaclynHillCosmetics even though I love the back company of #Morphe, I don’t support certain things and drama along with racism is something I do not support. Today I actually put on a face thanks to Manny Gutierrez thanks and some of my other go to Companies. With regard to the voting, I posted in my community group and apparently I am one of the many poll workers that did not get contact about the district shrinking and now because the regular workers are not available due to coronavirus, they need workers but I am really surprised that they have the in person option available because in order to vote you have to stand in line and stand in line you have to be in a large group of people and that is something that is not recommended in order to combat this virus. Anyway, tonight is going to be a busy night for me so I am going to sign off and get my shit done that needs to get done before my meeting and the race.
OK we are out and about again and for the love of me, I cannot figure out how to delete CXP draft number three to compose this entry. Anyway last night and yesterday were absolutely amazingly interesting. I don’t talk about it often but I lost my dad 12 years ago to lung cancer and tomorrow would have been his 79th birthday. I was going about my day normally as I call my mom because I don’t like going upstairs every time I need to discuss something-anyway I asked Siri to call mom – she proceeds to try and call my dad two times – I think/I know it was his way of communicating with me because shit like that don’t happen on a regular basis. So I screenshot The message and shared it to my Facebook just because I wanted to keep it as a memory. Last night was the Coca-Cola 600 and there was a rain delay of 90 minutes or so which means that I did not get to see the whole race thanks to my kids wanting to go to bed. Woke up this morning feeling refreshed both energywise and emotionally which means today is going to be a kick ass day. I’m going to knit I am going to drink coffee I’m going to do what I do every day which is just be awesome. I have several entries in draft that must be edited and scheduled/published. I walked all the way over to Exxonmobil to grab some snacks just because I needed some outside interaction with other human beings. Definitely looking forward to this quarantine/captivity/stay at home order to be over-I know it’s lifted in some places in the nation and there are some counties in my home state that are lifted or moving towards being completely lifted. If I could live anywhere right now, it would definitely be the Carolinas just because they have the governors that are #WeThePeople versus dictator ship governors who are overreaching. I think I spoke about last night earlier in this blog-I am going to edit and publish some drafts I have and look for some articles I can share in the future. I still have some things to say about the cosmetics industry just because my brain never shuts off about it since there’s still always going to be controversy regardless if we’re in a pandemic quarantine or not. Oh Em Gee, #JeffreeStarCosmetics #JaclynHillCosmetics. Both are continuously surrounding themselves with controversy. Just when it’s “safe“ to purchase a product from them if you’re in their fan base still they decide to start something else up. I have not purchased anything#JaclynHillCosmetics since she launched her own cosmetics line which is backed by Morphe even though there is denial with that some people believe that it is #Morphe cosmetics with a Jaclyn Hill Cosmetics label. Anyway the new restock of #JeffreeStarCosmetics in a smattering of different items will be restocked on June 12 – sorry not sorry but I will not be partaking in any of the new products. I do not plan to purchase any more of his product because through this pandemic his true colors have come through and they are ugly colors that I do not choose to support. In the month of June I look forward to hopefully getting out of the house more often even though I don’t do that more than once or twice a day I still look forward to going to different places and seeing my friends etc. mixed messages do I send them? It could be possible because I support the quarantine in some aspects but in others I do not support it because not only is this pandemic taking lives it is taking livelihoods. And depending on your governor/dictator you are being told what you can & cannot do. I am going to talk a little bit about my personal life or lack there of it is not been affected too much by this pandemic because I am not in a serious relationship or any type of relationship I do have friends that I talk to but nobody has stepped up to be more than friends and am I OK with that yes but at the same time I feel like I may be ready for a relationship. I am not getting any younger. OK hanging out at home after a busy busy birthday where my dad would’ve been 79 years old today. I am knitting, I am listening to #SoggyDollarRadio. During my walk this morning, we ran into some french fries and a twizzler hanging out in the parking lot of the mall. Yes there’s been a lot of junk trash bullshit crap on the grounds everywhere in the Township and everywhere I go. It’s disgraceful that people are using the quarantine to make a mess just like they do when there’s no quarantine they don’t pick up their shit anyway I am currently working two scarves on my #SmartStix Circular needles from knitters pride. I am in love with these needles if they were a guy, they would be perfect. Speaking of guys, I am talking to a few and nothing serious anywhere but quarantine has made me realize that I may be ready for a relationship if I can find Mr. Qualified. I know I can be a stick in the mud bitch at times but over the past few days I’ve had a negative attitude and I figured out why this morning. I’ve gained 10 pounds and my hormonal balance is fucked up again so I have to watch what I eat watch my sugar intake etc. because by my birthday-my 43rd birthday – I want to be 160 pounds. It’s hard to believe that I am going to be 43 years old in November honestly I thought I would be farther in life than I am but apparently my path in life is not what I had thought it was going to be. I’m not married I do not have human children and Innoway I’m thankful I don’t have children because I personally don’t think I have the patience for a human child I don’t have patience in general very often. With my anxiety,Asthma, autism, cerebral palsy, comes OCD and a plethora of other things we have not identified yet. What’s really fucking annoying about asthma is that the signs/symptoms very much mimic the coronavirus COVID-19 so every time I mention something on social media about my asthma, someone is ignorant and says oh Em Gee you have corona virus, no I fucking don’t. I love having my own website because I can post pretty much any fucking thing I want to post. There was something I wanted to share on Facebook this morning about coronavirus and statistics but I did not. The reason I did not was because I knew Facebook would flag it as “fake news as “untruthful“ – let’s put it this way, certain social media outlets don’t want the human population to know the truth and when I say human population I mean we may not be alone out there because they found life on other planets. Just throwing that out there general information. Yes my emotions have been on the struggle bus lately and before my dad said the obvious no doubt signs from heaven I was kind of depressed because of all the drama and bullshit going on in the country and around the world. I can’t stand it-I am a homebody 99% of the time but the fact that I cannot go see my friends or go shopping for things other than what the government says are essentialIt’s really fucking with my mind because there are things that are considered essential that the government doesn’t consider essential. When they put together the list of essential items and they closed the certain stores that may not have essential items on their list – they fucked over people who have mental health issues. There are places I shop to get things for my mental health keeping me sane that would be yarn stores that would be metaphysical shops and those are not included in the “essential“ places of business. Actually President Trump just made a mandate where he says that places of worship are essential and honestly they should not have been shut down in the beginning there should have been a plan in place where churches synagogue would have been able to operate under guidelines. Anyway I think I’ve rambled enough for now I need to get back to my work.