OK as I said in the last blog #Journal101.1, I had some things to talk about with regard to online shopping from small businesses and also my coming out of the closet. Small business shopping-I will shop small when I can if you have a product I want and it is a reasonable price I will purchase but I believe strongly that if you have an online business you must have it registered you must be able to prove the paperwork and you must have fair shipping guidelines etc. Do not jack up the price of shipping or any item. If I purchase an item if I claim an item that I want- I don’t fucking expect the bill to be over $500 or over $300 when it’s all said and done that’s including shipping I’m not gonna pay fucking $55 for shipping and I’m going to check where you’re located versus where are you say you’re located this particular shop that screwed me over and blocked me said she was in Ohio moving to Texas but she’s really in Virginia she has no paperwork I didn’t business cards and her PayPal footer. I’m smarter than she thinks I am. With regard to me and the closet, I have always had a minor interest in women but never enough to act on and people have said since I will be able that but I should explore that side If I have an opportunity. I don’t know if I want to because it’s not strong enough to explore. I have certain standards and I am not found anyone who holds up to those standards in any gender right now. So I have 99 problems and being bicurious isn’t really a problem so I guess I have 100 and no problems. But I do say it does feel good become totally clean with the witchcraft with the LGBTQ and we don’t know about autism and OCD and anxiety. There are plenty of shirts out there plenty of things out there I could adopt from pride but I’m not going to because that’s not me it’s prideful enough without wearing the clothing. But I hate afraid to wear the rainbow let’s just put it that way I have always loved rainbow. With regard to my weight gain, #FuckYouCovid, and quarantine, but I have cut back extreme on the snacking and the choices that go in my mouth. I will get back to 160 it’s just gonna take time. I know I want to be lighter than 160 but right now my goal is 160. With regard to relationships in general, there is not any interest right now I am social and that’s the way it’s gonna be especially in the times were living in. People are always complaining that they have not been out on a date that they have not been asked to dinner etc.-do you not understand that we are in the middle of a health crisis and life is not going to be normal the way it was ever again and it’s sad especially for the economy my mind because my mall it’s not as thriving as it was back in March. Many stores have shifted their strategies and there are many quiet storefronts. A little birdie told me yesterday that there are at least six stores that have shifted to online only and they are using their storefronts here as fulfillment centers. So it has been a hot minute since I wrote anything but that’s cause I have been busy with life. Instead of just talking about it, I’ve been living in it. I remember what got this entry rolling & it was online shopping. Yes, I am still purchasing online and no it’s not going to stop just because of a few sour apples. No longer will I trust any business that doesn’t have verified credentials. In the past few weeks ago, I got a new pair of Crocs. The Rainbow tie-dye version. I had a lavender pair in the past which I can’t seem to be able to fin. Thanks to Poshmark, I was able to get three more sets. The grey with fuzz trim arrived but I am waiting for the watermelon and a new pair of lavender. In the meantime, I have gotten a few more pieces of selenite and other crystals. Most from my dealer in Virginia and some local. Today specifically was kind of fun because I finally decided to join the ”James Charles Sisters Community ” with the purchase of the •mini artistry palette• also I got my paws on some new yarn. So I’m excited to play with the beautiful makeup and yarn. I’m going to be shifting away from the Red Heart yarns because honestly, they are crappy – Crappy but I still use it because I have it in stock, I am thinking about sending some unused overflow yarn to Wisconsin because #JonahLarson could probably use some fan support at the moment even though he has a deal with one of the biggest yarn companies in the country. I have been silent on the journal front even though I have been working on the blog editing and scheduling, I have been quiet because I have been living my life and not telling everybody every damn thing that happens. Living life and enjoying my family friends etc. I remember not long ago I posted about relationships and how I never thought I would find the “perfect relationship“ but I don’t think there is such a thing as a perfect relationship but to find the “perfect partner“ for you is possible. I was not looking for a relationship per se but I found one and I’m happy – apparently, I have a thing for “blue-collar guys“ but that doesn’t bother me because I’m not in it for money or fame or anything I’m in it for the heart. My guy is a sweetheart and I couldn’t be more thankful. We have been together for a month but it feels like much longer than that we are a very good match for each other we connect on a mental emotional and physical level-he is not a model or celebrity style but I don’t give two shits because we have a bond that we’ve had since the first five minutes and I never would’ve guessed that a well-being message would turn into a relationship. Speaking of relationships, good ole Jeffree Star doesn’t waste much fucking time literally figuratively jumping from relationship with Nathan to a new one with somebody that I don’t know of course I don’t know Nathan either but apparently, his new partner has an ex-girlfriend that is shocked that her former lover decided to bed down with Jeffree Lynn! To be honest, I wouldn’t want my ex or maybe I would want them to bed down with that being but speaking of my exes, I am not speaking to one and on the verge of not speaking to the other because what do I need to be my life for when I have moved on? Come September I am hoping and praying that I can start saving money because living on the skids isn’t something I’m particularly fond of.