Good afternoon/evening ladies and gentlemen, I have been out of the house/office until about two hours ago because I got to go on a road trip and a change of scenery happened which was very necessary. I have discovered that even though I may not technically be a witch I do enjoy some of the witchy interests and fascinations. I enjoy energies paranormal’s karma. I do like The Celtic crescent moon pentagram and the rainbow moonstone. I do have a little Irish in my blood so I’m wondering if that’s why I am fascinated with Celtic. I do remember going to Ireland I was younger Plus I am fascinated with death and the afterlife not wanting to die or wishing people would die but the process is interesting. Slide from the thoughts in my head, I am working on the knitting which I did not take it on the road with me but I probably should have I would’ve gotten a ton done So I’m sitting here with the girls watching mamas family. So last night I put a small bowl of salt on the counter in the den and went to bed I think it made it little more lively not in a bad way and now I’m sitting here after going to brunch watching cops having more coffee and knitting – I have several things that I am looking forward to getting within the next few months. So I have been doing more research about witchcraft/white witch/cottage which-trying to figure out which witch I am or am not. I have always been interested in the craft I’ve always been interested in different things-I enjoy researching different subjects whether they stick with me or not is the question but I’ve always been a little mysterious as a Scorpio female anyway. I think I mentioned in the past post I’ve been fascinated with death and the afterlife not necessarily wanting to die or looking forward to dying I’m actually a little bit afraid of dying and I’m afraid of losing the rest of my family to death even though I know they will be watching over me I don’t want to be alone-I know that sounds crazy for someone that’s an introvert also someone that has autism-we like to be alone we like to have our space we like certain things that others don’t and I guess what still frustrating to me is that I don’t sleep in my own bedroom anymore since my uncle moved in so I’m living in a room with no doors for privacy and that bothers me. When I think about witchcraft and similar subject, I think about the fact that I want to learn how to get rid of the negative karma and negative energy in my household even though other people don’t see the negative I see the negative karma and it makes me uncomfortable plus the fact that I don’t know where it comes from. Wh when I think about witchcraft and similar subject, I think about the fact that I want to learn how to get rid of the negative armor and negative energy in my household even though other people don’t see the negative I see the negative karma and it makes me uncomfortable plus the fact that I don’t know where it comes from. Anyhow, I am going to stop randomly rambling and go about my day.
Good morning and happy Saturday, yesterday was absolutely crazy as if there has not been enough crazy in my life the past few days, my 14-year-old decided to have a bad day and it scared the living shit out of me almost literally but as of this morning she is feeling much better and life is going to march on I just have to get used to having a senior dog – we went into the situation crash boom bang. So we now have her on a bland diet of yogurt and crackers, whatever she wants that is not going to upset the Digestive system. But I am learning that you don’t need to call the vet for everything, sometimes just mentioning them or checking in on Facebook brings it to their attention. So today after the gym I am going to work on the knitting and probably get the kitchen organized again because I ran the dishes this morning and I usually like to get things moving within the 1 to 2-hour time frame after the dishwasher is finished whenever the dishes are cool enough to touch. I’m really excited for the new #JeffreeStarXMorphe collaboration part Deux, it’s going to be #Starberry which kind of reminds me of #LunarBeauty and they just came out with a strawberry-scented collection, the question is who had the concept first but I am going with #JeffreeStar’s collection because I I am in love with his formulas. And I have more formulas/product from Jeffree Star. Anyhow, we are home watching television, looking forward to August 13-I went grocery shopping I got some things for the queen and they did not have my coconut yogurt which I was disappointed but I did pick up some other items of necessary like hummus and #LennyAndLarrys peanut butter cookies. Sometimes picking up in-store is easier than ordering when you just need to add to your stash not update it completely. So with that, all said we are going to continue watching television and knitting which is what we do every single day of our lives which is fine with us. God bless you and thank you for reading my craziness.
So with #LittleBitches being done I am now moving onto the next bugaboo in my life which is not really of a bugaboo it’s more like another chapter to #LittleBitches, #AmputatedBugLegs, This morning when I was doing the dishes I snapped the legs of a waterbug or Millipede, with that being said I went to the gym I did my business, I went to #UltaBeauty and got my business accomplished which was to do my cardio and get some pictures etc. do some reviews more like promotions but I did and then I went to REI because there were some high school/college age adolescence at the beauty shop which was somehow annoying my senses so I removed myself from the situation and actually to be completely honest they were the inspiration for the title #LittleBitches. I realized at dinner time tonight/this afternoon, that my moods fluctuate depending on the Barometer so these mental aliens that I’ve been experiencing very well could be the result of a fucked-up barometer. Also I’ve been witnessing my 14-year-old slowly go downhill, she is still here she is still energized but it takes her longer to do certain things and I know with hounds or with any breed of dog, it can sometimes be #TheLongGoodbye- not something that I want to experience this year or next or even the year after that but unfortunately I know one of these years it will happen, unfortunately our canine companions cannot live forever. Anyhow since I’ve published #LittleBitches, my mood has gotten better I don’t know if the barometer is gotten better or not but I know that is one of the causes of my mood swings-I’m sitting here with my knitting project on my lap and #LivePD On my TV set, looking forward to seeing him on I can stay up tonight knowing that a fresh episode is coming #LivePD #WeekendTV. On my TV set, looking forward to seeing him on I can stay up tonight knowing that a fresh episode is coming to #LivePD #WeekendTV I do not know why exactly but I’ve been knocked off my Instagram several times within the past few days all of them at one point or another I don’t know what the fuck is going on with Instagram/Facebook bullshit but I’m tired of it-I’ve been publishing on #FacebookPages more than regular Facebook lately because I’m trying to avoid drama whether it be catfights political bullshit or just stuff I don’t want to subject myself to. Living in the dog room with my kids is a sacrifice that I know that isn’t going to be forever but having an elderly dog does have its own stresses I’m wondering if that is also part of the problem knowing that her life isn’t forever-the constant backache the constant muscle issues etc. not having full privacy is a constant problem having to adapt my routine because I am living in the public space. Living in a household where one of the adults is unable to recognize that I need my own space sometimes and walking through when I’m trying to sleep or when I’m trying to have my time is really fucking annoying. Not being able to close a bedroom door/take a bath whenever I want to every night-yeah that’s the stresses I’m living with right now. Yes, sometimes I know I talk too much about too many personal things but this is my journal this is my therapy I need to talk about it and get it out or I will go stir crazy like hot oil and popcorn. OK, so next thing is once again thanking my followers and readers for putting up with my bullshit. So with that, all said I am going to log off and work on some knitting which is my meditation.
Dear friends, this morning I had an interesting revelation while I was window shopping and note gathering-college age kids, sometimes their presence in my bubble area is unwanted and unwarranted. I sometimes like to be in my own world I don’t like when certain beings are around in some places because it makes me feel inadequate -I know in my heart I am thinking foolish but in my mind I have these mind clothes where I don’t feel good enough I don’t feel like I am on an even level with everyone else. I think it is because of my #AutismOperatingSystem, My mind does not work like other people and at times it plays tricks on my common sense I think that has been happening a lot lately and it bothers me-I feel that maybe I’m not as valuable to some people and I know in the real world reality I am totally insane. I know I’m good enough I know I’m pretty enough I know I am capable enough but when you have the aliens in your head saying my mind does not work like other people and at times it plays tricks on my common sense I think that has been happening a lot lately and it bothers me-I feel that maybe I’m not as valuable to some people and I know in the real world reality I am totally insane. I know I’m good enough I know I’m pretty enough I know I am capable enough but when you have the aliens in your head saying otherwise you really start to think about the aliens talking more than normal neurologically individuals. The reason I titled this little bitch is is because that’s how I see people that annoy the shit out of me-Nuro typical people have a tendency to annoy the shit out of me on the regular-including my family who we all have different operating systems and I have struggled with “little bitch syndrome“ in other people. I don’t know if this was in a previous post I did or not but I’m gonna reiterate because I don’t see it on the log haven last night I was asked if I am married or in a relationship, the answer is no to both-I was asked that because I wear a ring, I have a slew of rings #SiliconeRings that I love wearing a single girl/woman can wear a ring or should be able to wear a ring without being questioned about relationship status-I wear rings because I want to wear rings I like jewelry I like silicone jewelry the best, because I am allergic to certain metals and I have found that even sterling or gold etc including stainless steel May or may not have a metal called nickel-and that is what I believe I’m allergic to-amongst my other problems in life I have to worry about what is in. I will say I am happy in my life for the most part except for my emotional health at times my mental health and I’ve come to realize that my Mental health is more problematic than not lately at least I feel that way I don’t feel like I need to be on funny farm for Xtreme medication but I feel like I am increasingly needing to have quiet time or zone out time where I can focus on myself and just be still in life whether that be windowshopping whether that be time away from my babies whether that be just time with my mom I don’t know and when I say time away from my mental health is more problematic than not lately at least I feel that way I don’t feel like I need to be on 40 form or extreme medication but I feel like I am increasingly needing to have quiet time or zone out time where I can focus on myself and just be still in life whether that be windowshopping whether that be time away from my babies whether that be just time with my mom I don’t know and when I say time away from my babies, sometimes they can be the opposite of emotional support pets sometimes they are the ones that need more emotional support than I.-I am going to even say that some of the craziness in this country has driven me insane in one way or another-I like knowing what’s going on in my country at the same time I don’t like some of the politics in this country even when I say my country and I know I’ve said this before, my eighth generation grandfather signed the Declaration of Independence, my 10th generation grandfather was the governor of the state of Maryland. I am very proud to be an American and I stand up for my country for my first amendment which is free speech, the right to say and think whatever the fuck we want which drives me in saying about #MainstreamMedia/#Facebook #Instagram #Twitter- he’s becoming more and more difficult in this country to get your point across to be able to say what you want to say without being punished #LandOfTheFreeBecauseOfTheBrave- Should also be #LandOfFree-speech #LandOfFreethinking We should not have government officials or anyone saying we can’t say we can do we can’t feel-guess what kids we think we feel we do whatever the fuck we want and if we get censored that’s not our fault that is the fault of platforms who don’t like what this country stands for-as for the weaponry we have something called the second amendment, the right to bear arms the way to carry weapons to protect oneself and one’s home one’s property. Do you have a government that wants to take away our guns are knives etc. excuse me but no I am not going to sit back and allow certain shit to happen I know I’m just an influencer I know that I know I’m just a blogger a product reviewer, but I may be one of the few that gives a shit what’s going on in my country..Going back to what I said about relationships and me not being in one, I don’t know if it’s me or my partners that I choose but no matter what when I’ve had official relationship whether it be platonic or romantic, I have always had an elephant in the relationship-never have I had a relationship be successful because someone didn’t want it to be. With that being said about relationships, maybe that is why I’m still single because I have yet to find someone who is willing to put up or handle or stand up for my relationships are relationships I find people who have pansy-ass parents or someone who doesn’t have the balls to stand up for me in the long run even if things were different or times of change etc. I would’ve stood up for us now vs then. Thankfully I don’t recycle relationships more than 3×3 strikes you’re out asshole. I should go to two strikes you’re out an asshole but I have too good of a heart and I want to give people the benefit of the doubt I doubt that it’s me I don’t think it’s my problems that kill the relationship I think it’s the partners I choose. Am I bitter towards my exes no I’m not it’s over I’m over them I just needed to get the shit out of my head a lot of things have been rattling around in this 40 something-year-old head and I think you’re always gonna be there because when you have autism when you have cerebral palsy when you have anxiety, you’re always gonna have something on your mind. No matter what you feel like you’re going to be different for Alfaro but I realize that Necessarily have to explain myself to anyone I just choose to because it helps me mentally when I say something about wanting to go on vacation or change my residential area, some days I feel like I need to do that sometimes I feel like I need a different outlook on life a different surroundings a different everything in life at the same time I love where I live for the most part because I have everything I need practically within 5 to 10 miles of my residence. As for shopping at my favorite stores, sometimes it’s just fucking easier to do it from the comfort of my own home but then you have to think about having to pay to ship or having to have a substantial order of a product. Am I a hoarder? Honestly, in some things I think I am but I know when to throw away trash I know when to do the dishes I know when to take a bath, etc. sidenote my dachshund is giving me the look of “mom are you serious“?-Because I am dictating this verbally instead of typing it so listening to what I’m saying is puzzling her. With all that said, I am going to go relax and ignore some shit for a while because my mental health is more important than anything else #HappyKnitting and #HappyWeekend
Dear friends, yesterday on a video chat private, I was asked if I was married because I wear a ring-the answer is no, the expanded answer is no I’m not married nor am I in a relationship. It seems to me that regardless of my social status and my relationships in general-I always have an elephant in the situation whether it be platonic or romantic. Do I want a relationship that is more than platonic? Yes but no-if the answer comes from not knowing what I really want right now-that is in life and in love. Do I want to be accepted and loved and liked for who I am yes I do but in that same regard, I am not going to push people into being my friend or being in a relationship. I look at couples and I think how the hell do they do that? How do they have a successful relationship? Over the past 20 some years that I’ve been on social media and that I have been in any type of relationship there’s always something that goes wrong. Whether it be my partner or myself- so with that all said there’s probably gonna be moments like thithe s again where my head is full of crap and it’s the same old crap. But once again I want to thank my followers for keeping up with my chaos even if it’s repetitive I appreciate my readers and my subscribers I will talk to you later.
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So Facebook and Instagram are not cooperating with me, I have several in the holding tank on Instagram and I have been avoiding Facebook the best they can-many things I want to repost on Instagram and I cannot. I am working on my knitting and watching television, very happy that I did not have anything removed at the doctors office this morning #DermatologistAppointment, shared several articles regarding Brandon Margera and also Luke Perry-It is still difficult to believe that Mr. Perry is no longer with us. I am very happy to know that he is at peace in the country specifically Dickinson Tennessee where he had a farm since 1995. I’m looking forward to seeing the Beverly Hills 90210 reboot because rumor has it that they are going to find a way to honor and tribute our wonderful Dylan McKay. I know I said that I was going to write a letter to Luke but every time I look around and think about what I wanna say, someone else has already set it Dickinson Tennessee where he had a farm since 1995. I’m looking forward to seeing the Beverly Hills 90210 reboot because rumor has it that they are going to find a way to honor and tribute our wonderful Dylan McKay. I know I said that I was going to write a letter to Luke but every time I look around and think about what I wanna say, someone else has already said it. Anyway I have been doing some ridiculous shopping of things I don’t necessarily need but I wanted and I had the funds to get them so I did but being at the middle of the month I have told myself no more until the middle of April. President Trump has just officially put all the 737 max Boeing aircraft on holding pattern meaning they cannot fly after the recent crash I believe it was in Ethiopia. There of been so many different things going on in the world that I’ve been trying to distance myself from because the less stress and less anxiety. Still going strong at the gym I have not been back since I weighed in at 160 pounds-uncertain if I’m still there but I am watching what I eat. In the recent days I’ve been getting away with only one cuppa coffee and I have been drinking a lot of water and hot chocolate on ice. With the use of my magical toothpaste, my teeth and become whiter and the sensitivity has virtually gone away. I am still an independent consultant with regard to that product and several others that link is on my website-I have been monitoring Instagram etc. for all kinds of things that I can promote. There is a few make up/cosmetic companies that are making duplicate/copycat product and some of them are going after the big boys. When you go after a big boy company with a fake knock off it’s very annoying and frustrating especially when it’s a company that I do promotions for whether it be official or not. Also with regard to the incident yesterday at Wegmans-if you don’t follow me on Facebook messenger you may not know this-but yesterday I was leaving the gym, going to the grocery store-some guy walked up to me and said where is your jacket, it’s cold out-I said my sweatshirt is warm enough. Then he went on to ask if I wanted a beer, Thank you but no thank you-by the way the governor of California just suspended the death penalty but going back to Wegmans-that was the first time that someone’s ever gotten up in my face like that and with that being said I now carry pepper spray. Anyway enough with my rambles and hopefully I will be able to post on Facebook and Instagram in the near future. Until then I will be posting here on the blog.
Okay so I’m sitting in bed with my thoughts and I’m here to spill what I have been thinking over time. Aside from the fact that I am watching Married At First Sight 2, I’m totally thinking about the social community I have been part of sporadically since September 2009. MeetMe was an awesome place to meet people back when it was MyYearbook because at that time it had many awesome things to do besides chat. It had games,causes etc but that good stuff went away over time as the years went on. I’ve met some people who are part of my social network and I don’t let many people into my world. Back in 2011,the company was bought and changed names and with the changing of captains came a boatload of chaos. The social safety team has really crapped out keeping the creepy at bay. If I wanted to see x-rated photos and being solicited by overseas scammers I would seek it out myself but I don’t want that crap, nor do I want to be a viewer of desperation,lonliness and narcotics trafficking I would seek it out myself. I don’t want any of the chaos. Many people who are in the community are looking for one nighters,cheating on their significant other etc. while the community is meant to be a place where everyone can be. It matters not what your relationship,religion,race or sexual orientation is. But here’s the problem with leaving,it still is a unique social community where I can communicate with others but it’s not tweeting or facebooking. So I guess I’m just stuck in a rut with it. I’m still praying for the miracle of meeting someone genuinely looking to be happy and honest in a committed relationship. With that in mind I am happy with myself and my current situation but I do wonder what my life would be like with someone in it again. I don’t want to bore anyone with the details so I’ll shut up now and if anyone has questions you may tweet or Facebook message me. http://www.facebook.com/2pkl340
So it’s somewhere between 1:00-2:00 in the morning and I just woke up for a bathroom break & I’m not in back to sleep mode which is not awesome so I’m going to just spit out some thoughts. Friday wasn’t the best day weather wise and I really wish it would have been much nicer, I don’t like having to keep the door closed because it’s not nice outside and the pooch doesn’t like having to be kept inside. I’m looking forward to being able to compose more entries and work more from my iPad when I get the new keyboard case that’s coming from Amazon shortly. I found out that Wegmans has a very nice selection of Kind Snacks but sadly they are cheaper on Amazon. I really do love my new bedsheets from wayfair except for the fact that polyester doesn’t get along with mattresses very well because they slip n slide a lot. I’m totally still addicted to Twitter even though I’ve merged my number of accounts into a decent number I still have to have multiple accounts in order to keep apprised of the daily life. I’m happy with my life and if it were doable I would only make slight changes. Changes to my life would be definitely awesome and will explain in a future blog. I know that this is super random but just had to get the thoughts out of my head so maybe I can get back to sleep. I’ll check in later 💚
Just had a wonderful lunch of shrimp, took photo of my yankee candle collection for Instagram,now watching InvestigationDiscovery with my best friend. Not too happy with the weather, wishing Mother Nature would decide whether it’s winter or spring.