Dear friends, during this coronavirus pandemic I have decided to teach myself how to work with lightweight yarn and luckily I was gifted some several months back and it is actually a discontinued product which sucks for me in the long run because I actually like this lightweight yarn that I was working with but thankfully I have an app that Can suggest similar product so that is going to be beneficial in the future endeavors when I want to work with lightweight yarn. I did not make anything very interesting with the lightweight yarn, I just did a swatch so I got the hang of things. Right now as I’m dictating this entry, I am watching TV having coffee and snuggling with my dogs. The veterinarians have said that during The staycation that humans need to limit their interaction with their pets-not happening because they are my emotional support critters and I could not do five minutes without them. I continue to see dramatic posts from random people but I also see the factual information that we need to learn and understand about the disease/Virus. As I posted on Facebook, I have decided to start doing your own reviews because there’s yarn I love and there’s yarn I just hate not because of the brand or the parent company it is because of the texture. I have recently organized my stash with the help of my mom and have pretty much everything properly placed. I have everything on display and in almost a show room fashion. I have a lot of cotton and I have a lot of acrylics and I have always worked best with the medium yarn but recently I decided to teach myself how to work with a lightweight yarn. Which I mentioned up above. Like I said the yarn has been discontinued but I definitely plan on continuing to teach myself I think I’m going to save the remainder of the unused yarn because if I end up purchasing some on my own, I will need to know what I like because this crafter has a key brain/goldfish memory. I am currently working on two different projects one on A larger needle and one on the size 6 circular that I recently heart yarn acquired which I have been debating whether or not to purchase the interchangeable circular pack or if I should buy them individually which makes sense economically and which ones will I use more. I have worked with different needles different yarns but before I purchased more of these particular needles that I just got I want to make sure that all the yards I have that I like to work will work with this particular needle. This needle is not new on the market but it is new to me and I’m excited because they have a built in cooler I’ve built in gauge and you can tell how large your project is when it’s on the needle. So since I worked on this entry, I tore out the chocolate cherry scarf because I want to reuse that yarn in a new project which I started this morning. A 90 stitch scrap yarn blanket wrap. I have a shit load of red heart yarn That I thought I would be used to make scarves because I once thought that I would become a scarf factory of sorts but that did not happen. I have had a pretty good day even though it is rainy and cold with a repeat on tap for tomorrow. March has come in like a lamb and is definitely going to go out like a fucking lion. Also I would like to make a note that this entire coronavirus thing has me thinking about where did it really come from who begin with it who is responsible who’s lying and who’s telling the truth-do I trust . Government government? No not really-am I registered Republican-yes I am but I’m an independent thinker I vote for the purpose not politician-do I like our UGGs for 2020 in the Democratic category absolutely fucking not-do I think Mr. Donald Trump is better in the White House then Joe Biden or Bernie Sanders absolutely but do I agree with everything Mr. Donald Trump says absolutely not. And I am spending today just like every other day with my dogs who there’s a report out that says that we should not be with our animals during this coronavirus pandemic but the government doesn’t understand fully that those of us with mental health issues depend on our animals and our animals depend on us. These animals that we all loved ones are absolutely living for the coronavirus staycation because they get their parents 24/7.
Good morning and happy Halloween – I am working my buns off today because yesterday I didn’t feel so good. Little do people know, I do have mild asthma which I don’t really talk about because it doesn’t affect me every day like it does other people. Right now though, I am watching #GhostHunters, Because I didn’t feel well the last night-I didn’t get to watch the Penhurst Asylum investigation which aired last night along with the season finale of #GhostHunters. I’m looking forward to see the number to of #GhostHunters, just like I did not watch ghost hunters, I did not watch #DogsMostWanted which means that I did not watch that final episode with Mrs. Beth Chapman. Honestly even though I love the family, I do not like how they are profiting off her death and I say this because there is been an onslaught of merchandise, official merchandise that they are marketing as what I would call memorial/tributary. I pumped out at least three blogs articles this morning and I’m going to continue, I’m just saying that the house which is divided, A house divided about the impeachment investigation of the president-I know impeachment doesn’t mean removed from office it just means that he’s being incriminated or something like that indicted is the word I’m looking for indicted. I am not a fan of the Democrats I’ve made that obvious I’m not a fan of any politician who does wrong in their power so to speak “power” – I’m totally against the way some townships/ villages/boroughs are being screwed up. Why can’t we just leave our communities as they were as long as it’s moving smoothly why fix something that is not technically broken just I am not a fan of the Democrats I’ve made that obvious I’m not a fan of any politician who does wrong in their power so to speak “power“-I am totally against the way some townships/villages/boroughs are being screwed up. Why can’t we just leave our communities as they were as long as it’s moving smoothly why fix something that is not technically broken just because Because there’s a politician that wants it a different way. If it isn’t broken don’t do a damn thing to it. I speak like this because I don’t like what’s going on in my hometown I have made that clear I I am very unhappy with my local government but on the other hand I am very happy that we did not sell the solar system like the Democrats wanted. Funny thing happened the other day, there was a knock at my door and a friend of the incumbent candidate handed me a pamphlet of the “accomplishment”-yeah? Not getting my vote sweetheart. I’d vote for the candidate not the party but it’s which candidate I feel is best appropriate for the job and she was not the candidate that I wanted in the job. Yes I am Going to vote with my designated party affiliation. I’ve also been thinking about my spirituality my religion just me lately and regardless of what people think how people feel, I am going to do what makes me feel good and what makes me go through life easier. I believe in God but I also believe in anything that helps my mental health and if that includes the craft so be it. So with that I am going to bed you farewell until my next overloaded brain session I love you and thank you for reading.
Good Evening, I’m sitting here watching television and thinking about my next acquisition – whether or not it’s going to be cosmetic or crafty. Knowing that I have just completed my JSCXMORPHE mini lippie bundle in full-size, I don’t know what else is necessary to add to the Arsenal even though I am considering the v3 collaboration face brushes just because I really like them… I was kind of considering the mini artistry palette from James Charles but my connections are telling me not to waste my money but then MannyMua really likes the mini vs the OG. I have many items that I have on definite want as far as my magick goes. I also have a few ideas of what new yarns I want to add to the currently stable yarn stash. I am thinking of doing a smattering of scarves cause they are quick knits. So anyway I’m having a great day just because good things have been Occurring. When I was flirting with the James Charles mini, I had a feeling that something was going to cause me to change my mind. Whenever I change my mind it always has to has money involved? Okay, I am going to finish this entry with a few final thoughts. Today, the mood was fabulous just because but I also got some retail therapy and study in. Finally got my Celtic Moon pendant and got some energy recharge along with cosmetic study. I am not getting the James Charles palette nor am I getting the collection from Shane Dawson from JeffreeStarCosmetics because I am not a fan of the pig logo but the color story looks boring as hell. So maybe this entry is not over yet, I have made a decision about my next adoption of JSC. i’m getting the face brushes and I’m getting the 24K highlighter palette because I had figured out a few things #HalloweenMystery-Highlighter, All it is is two of his regular highlighters mixed together with black specs #Darkhorse And my decision has been made about the rainbow palette if I get one#WetXWild 40th anniversary palette and yes I know it’s #WetNWild so I will sign off and publish. Have a wonderful weekend and kick some ass.
So with #LittleBitches being done I am now moving onto the next bugaboo in my life which is not really of a bugaboo it’s more like another chapter to #LittleBitches, #AmputatedBugLegs, This morning when I was doing the dishes I snapped the legs of a waterbug or Millipede, with that being said I went to the gym I did my business, I went to #UltaBeauty and got my business accomplished which was to do my cardio and get some pictures etc. do some reviews more like promotions but I did and then I went to REI because there were some high school/college age adolescence at the beauty shop which was somehow annoying my senses so I removed myself from the situation and actually to be completely honest they were the inspiration for the title #LittleBitches. I realized at dinner time tonight/this afternoon, that my moods fluctuate depending on the Barometer so these mental aliens that I’ve been experiencing very well could be the result of a fucked-up barometer. Also I’ve been witnessing my 14-year-old slowly go downhill, she is still here she is still energized but it takes her longer to do certain things and I know with hounds or with any breed of dog, it can sometimes be #TheLongGoodbye- not something that I want to experience this year or next or even the year after that but unfortunately I know one of these years it will happen, unfortunately our canine companions cannot live forever. Anyhow since I’ve published #LittleBitches, my mood has gotten better I don’t know if the barometer is gotten better or not but I know that is one of the causes of my mood swings-I’m sitting here with my knitting project on my lap and #LivePD On my TV set, looking forward to seeing him on I can stay up tonight knowing that a fresh episode is coming #LivePD #WeekendTV. On my TV set, looking forward to seeing him on I can stay up tonight knowing that a fresh episode is coming to #LivePD #WeekendTV I do not know why exactly but I’ve been knocked off my Instagram several times within the past few days all of them at one point or another I don’t know what the fuck is going on with Instagram/Facebook bullshit but I’m tired of it-I’ve been publishing on #FacebookPages more than regular Facebook lately because I’m trying to avoid drama whether it be catfights political bullshit or just stuff I don’t want to subject myself to. Living in the dog room with my kids is a sacrifice that I know that isn’t going to be forever but having an elderly dog does have its own stresses I’m wondering if that is also part of the problem knowing that her life isn’t forever-the constant backache the constant muscle issues etc. not having full privacy is a constant problem having to adapt my routine because I am living in the public space. Living in a household where one of the adults is unable to recognize that I need my own space sometimes and walking through when I’m trying to sleep or when I’m trying to have my time is really fucking annoying. Not being able to close a bedroom door/take a bath whenever I want to every night-yeah that’s the stresses I’m living with right now. Yes, sometimes I know I talk too much about too many personal things but this is my journal this is my therapy I need to talk about it and get it out or I will go stir crazy like hot oil and popcorn. OK, so next thing is once again thanking my followers and readers for putting up with my bullshit. So with that, all said I am going to log off and work on some knitting which is my meditation.
Dear friends, this morning I had an interesting revelation while I was window shopping and note gathering-college age kids, sometimes their presence in my bubble area is unwanted and unwarranted. I sometimes like to be in my own world I don’t like when certain beings are around in some places because it makes me feel inadequate -I know in my heart I am thinking foolish but in my mind I have these mind clothes where I don’t feel good enough I don’t feel like I am on an even level with everyone else. I think it is because of my #AutismOperatingSystem, My mind does not work like other people and at times it plays tricks on my common sense I think that has been happening a lot lately and it bothers me-I feel that maybe I’m not as valuable to some people and I know in the real world reality I am totally insane. I know I’m good enough I know I’m pretty enough I know I am capable enough but when you have the aliens in your head saying my mind does not work like other people and at times it plays tricks on my common sense I think that has been happening a lot lately and it bothers me-I feel that maybe I’m not as valuable to some people and I know in the real world reality I am totally insane. I know I’m good enough I know I’m pretty enough I know I am capable enough but when you have the aliens in your head saying otherwise you really start to think about the aliens talking more than normal neurologically individuals. The reason I titled this little bitch is is because that’s how I see people that annoy the shit out of me-Nuro typical people have a tendency to annoy the shit out of me on the regular-including my family who we all have different operating systems and I have struggled with “little bitch syndrome“ in other people. I don’t know if this was in a previous post I did or not but I’m gonna reiterate because I don’t see it on the log haven last night I was asked if I am married or in a relationship, the answer is no to both-I was asked that because I wear a ring, I have a slew of rings #SiliconeRings that I love wearing a single girl/woman can wear a ring or should be able to wear a ring without being questioned about relationship status-I wear rings because I want to wear rings I like jewelry I like silicone jewelry the best, because I am allergic to certain metals and I have found that even sterling or gold etc including stainless steel May or may not have a metal called nickel-and that is what I believe I’m allergic to-amongst my other problems in life I have to worry about what is in. I will say I am happy in my life for the most part except for my emotional health at times my mental health and I’ve come to realize that my Mental health is more problematic than not lately at least I feel that way I don’t feel like I need to be on funny farm for Xtreme medication but I feel like I am increasingly needing to have quiet time or zone out time where I can focus on myself and just be still in life whether that be windowshopping whether that be time away from my babies whether that be just time with my mom I don’t know and when I say time away from my mental health is more problematic than not lately at least I feel that way I don’t feel like I need to be on 40 form or extreme medication but I feel like I am increasingly needing to have quiet time or zone out time where I can focus on myself and just be still in life whether that be windowshopping whether that be time away from my babies whether that be just time with my mom I don’t know and when I say time away from my babies, sometimes they can be the opposite of emotional support pets sometimes they are the ones that need more emotional support than I.-I am going to even say that some of the craziness in this country has driven me insane in one way or another-I like knowing what’s going on in my country at the same time I don’t like some of the politics in this country even when I say my country and I know I’ve said this before, my eighth generation grandfather signed the Declaration of Independence, my 10th generation grandfather was the governor of the state of Maryland. I am very proud to be an American and I stand up for my country for my first amendment which is free speech, the right to say and think whatever the fuck we want which drives me in saying about #MainstreamMedia/#Facebook #Instagram #Twitter- he’s becoming more and more difficult in this country to get your point across to be able to say what you want to say without being punished #LandOfTheFreeBecauseOfTheBrave- Should also be #LandOfFree-speech #LandOfFreethinking We should not have government officials or anyone saying we can’t say we can do we can’t feel-guess what kids we think we feel we do whatever the fuck we want and if we get censored that’s not our fault that is the fault of platforms who don’t like what this country stands for-as for the weaponry we have something called the second amendment, the right to bear arms the way to carry weapons to protect oneself and one’s home one’s property. Do you have a government that wants to take away our guns are knives etc. excuse me but no I am not going to sit back and allow certain shit to happen I know I’m just an influencer I know that I know I’m just a blogger a product reviewer, but I may be one of the few that gives a shit what’s going on in my country..Going back to what I said about relationships and me not being in one, I don’t know if it’s me or my partners that I choose but no matter what when I’ve had official relationship whether it be platonic or romantic, I have always had an elephant in the relationship-never have I had a relationship be successful because someone didn’t want it to be. With that being said about relationships, maybe that is why I’m still single because I have yet to find someone who is willing to put up or handle or stand up for my relationships are relationships I find people who have pansy-ass parents or someone who doesn’t have the balls to stand up for me in the long run even if things were different or times of change etc. I would’ve stood up for us now vs then. Thankfully I don’t recycle relationships more than 3×3 strikes you’re out asshole. I should go to two strikes you’re out an asshole but I have too good of a heart and I want to give people the benefit of the doubt I doubt that it’s me I don’t think it’s my problems that kill the relationship I think it’s the partners I choose. Am I bitter towards my exes no I’m not it’s over I’m over them I just needed to get the shit out of my head a lot of things have been rattling around in this 40 something-year-old head and I think you’re always gonna be there because when you have autism when you have cerebral palsy when you have anxiety, you’re always gonna have something on your mind. No matter what you feel like you’re going to be different for Alfaro but I realize that Necessarily have to explain myself to anyone I just choose to because it helps me mentally when I say something about wanting to go on vacation or change my residential area, some days I feel like I need to do that sometimes I feel like I need a different outlook on life a different surroundings a different everything in life at the same time I love where I live for the most part because I have everything I need practically within 5 to 10 miles of my residence. As for shopping at my favorite stores, sometimes it’s just fucking easier to do it from the comfort of my own home but then you have to think about having to pay to ship or having to have a substantial order of a product. Am I a hoarder? Honestly, in some things I think I am but I know when to throw away trash I know when to do the dishes I know when to take a bath, etc. sidenote my dachshund is giving me the look of “mom are you serious“?-Because I am dictating this verbally instead of typing it so listening to what I’m saying is puzzling her. With all that said, I am going to go relax and ignore some shit for a while because my mental health is more important than anything else #HappyKnitting and #HappyWeekend
Good morning friends, I wanted to give a shout out to my Peach Pit Pals because last night was phenomenal whether or not it was what we expected, it was amazing to have our friends back on our TV. The thing I wanted to bring to the surface wise the negative attitude of Tori Spelling, I didn’t like the way she was rude about Shannen -I think she was definitely catty and not appropriate whether her attitude was truthful or not- The show would not of been the show without Brenda Walsh let’s face and I honestly didn’t really like everything after Brenda went off to you wherever she went off to but I stayed because I also love Jenni guard plus we all know Mr. Coy Luther Perry kept us going forever-speaking of Luke, I hope that was not The entire tribute because honestly it’s sucked-a champagne toast in his honor and a banner at the end was definitely not appropriate well appropriate it was but I expected more much more anyway today is a better day than the past few I woke up got my coffee cup filled her up and started knitting. Other than knitting and 90210 life is a good man I’ll be perfect but it’s good. today hopefully I get to go to the gym. I’m looking forward to the next leg of the collaboration, don’t know when I’m going to be purchasing but I will be I’m hoping that it’s not all limited edition because there’s something about strawberry scented setting spray just like there’s something about cherry scented spray but then again as long as it doesn’t have a chemical smell I’m all for it. The chemical smell is why I cannot use certain products it agitates my system. W/regard to politics, it’s a dirty business and it’s stressful no matter which side of the aisle you’re on but I am someone who will not hold back her thoughts and feelings. That’s why I created this blog to be my sounding board significant other somewhere to dump my thoughts and feelings without worrying about what other people think. OK so it’s a few days later and I’m feeling pretty good right now-the fog has sort of lifted and I am in a better state of mind but that doesn’t mean that the anxiety horse can’t ride back in my life because it’s an unpredictable being. I’ve given myself a few days to digest what happen with #BH90210, OK so it’s a few days later and I’m feeling pretty good right now-the fog has sort of lifted and I am in a better state of mind but that doesn’t mean that the anxiety horse can’t ride back in my life because it’s an unpredictable being. I’ve given myself a few days to digest what happen with #BH90210, I have digested things over the past few days with Beverly Hills 90210 and the peach pit pop up which I just saw is extending its run for another six weeks due to high demand which I will not be attending again because I am not in California and even though the show is near and dear to my heart in my childhood, I’m not flying out there to be in a country that I don’t agree with the politics in. I love the entire OG cast regardless of what I or any other blogger posts on their website. I know there is some bullshit flying around and some craziness going on with other #MainstreamMedia, I want to tell you how to think they want to indoctrinate you with their thoughts and their opinions wow it may or may not be something you want to believe. A lot of things are exaggerated. I do share some interesting out there articles on my blog I will admit that but somebody I do just for ratings and followers. I am in contact or Facebook friends Instagram friends etc. with a certain person I will not post anything about them because I want to protect them. A lot of my Internet family is special to me every person in the celebrity world that I am in communication or friends with is a unique situation and I’m not going to ruin a friendship because of politics because of gossip because of whatever. Yes somethings in my neighborhoods are bothering me to the hilt with redevelopment with the decrease of green space with the increase of certain retail and residential-I have seen my community transform into almost unrecognizable because of politics. My goal for today is to focus on making myself happy doing what makes me happy and not giving a fuck about what other people think.
I’m laying in bed watching television and keeping an eye on all social media. Not only did the terrorist attack in El Paso Texas upset me but also watching what’s happening to Brandon Margera. These crazy Instagram posts tweets etc. make me understand the people who are close to him or worried sick about his well-being and his future-I’m no expert but I can see that there’s a serious addiction problem going on one that he had apparently under control At one time but has seemed to have fallen off the wagon. So having the story break kind of takes the spotlight of El Paso Texas but having a celebrity addiction story drop in the middle of a terrorist attack headline junket, interesting but I think the Brandon Margera situation has been unfolding slowly over the past few days or shall I say the latest chapter of the so having the story break kind of takes the spotlight off El Paso Texas but having a celebrity addiction story drop in the middle of a terrorist attack headline junket, interesting but I think the Brandon Margera situation has been unfolding slowly over the past few days or shall I say the latest chapter of the Brandon Margera situation. I have been a backseat fan of his for a long while and sometimes when I see something negative happening with one of my favorite celebrity personalities I kind of take a blind eye to it and don’t follow it because I don’t wanna stress myself out over the situation. It’s also been a week since Hurricane Jeffree and I’ve been following all kinds of crazy stories about everything going on in the world. I just saw an Instagram video from Perez Hilton about Mr. Diva’s mystery box content. I have since tweeted the claim of Moldy Lipstick to see what if anything is true about the video claims. Somehow I am thinking that Perez may be getting confused on the moldy lipstick story. The moldy lipstick disaster was Jaclyn Hill, not Jeffree Star. With all that being said I am going to keep track of everything else going on in the world including the multiple terror attacks and just life in general. Between Gilroy, El Paso and now Dayton Ohio life and I’m very disappointed with humanity. It is disturbing and disgusting but what is more disturbing and disgusting is the political ping pong balls-we need to focus on the victims unfortunately and we need to figure out why we have the shooters because it is not the guns fault, guns do not just get up and kill people-it is people that kill people. Between Gilroy, El Paso and now Dayton Ohio life and I’m very disappointed with humanity. It is disturbing and disgusting but what is more disturbing and disgusting is the political ping-pong balls-we need to focus on the victims unfortunately and we need to figure out why we have shooters because it is not the guns fault, guns do not just get up and kill people I think it is people kill people
OK so I found some good news within yesterday and its chaos-my former childhood vacation home Is now a rental property/Airbnb in the US Virgin Islands, I spent over 20 years vacationing on this property and I can say for certain that I would not come home if I were to go visit the island because it has the best memories for me for my childhood and adolescence. I am following the house on Instagram and Facebook and I am going to link some things on my website so that others can maybe go visit a slice of heaven. I am not an official ambassador for the property but as a former resident/Homeowner, I feel it is my duty to help the current owners promote this beautiful island and this beautiful home that holds so many memories for me even though they have reached the end of i, I feel it is my duty to help the current owners promote this beautiful island and this beautiful home that holds so many memories for me even though they have Renovated and re-decorated. When I first heard about them putting it on Airbnb I was a little shall say hurt, Because it’s a special place it’s my childhood and I felt like I wasn’t wanting anyone else but the current homeowners and their friends to experience my slice of paradise but I’ve realized that certain things are not in my control-it is not my house anymore, it is a memory that I cherish that is etched in my brain forever and ever. And I’m certain that my dad God rest his soul, would be proud of the new owners and how far they’ve come with Lille Vidunder. This morning I was given the direct links to my beloved and have since posted the links on this website and two short cuts so I am able to do a speedy referral-as of right now I am not an ambassador or getting paid for my work which is fine. I do not work for Airbnb I do not work for the new owners I am doing this out of the goodness of my heart and my find memories. For those of you who are interested and don’t want to ruffle through Instagram or my webpage the following is the link to the Airbnb for @LilleVidunder
#LilleVidunder #STTUSVI. #USVirginIslands #AmericanParadise #DuringVacation #LoveLilleVidunder! https://abnb.me/DzLm2Y3GSY #VirginIslandsTourism
Good afternoon I am sitting here watching mamas family and knitting but I am thinking about the people of El Paso Texas. I know that this event unfolding in Walmart is definitely tragic and unnecessary but I need to get my mind spitting out my thoughts, The second amendment gives us all American citizens the right to bear arms but I agree that we need to have some kind of gun control but we also have to realize that the Human who has the weapon is the enemy Not the weapon itself. I posted on Facebook a rather interesting message and I’m going to say it here also. To the shooter, you are an evil bastard you need to be put behind bars for life you have torn apart many peoples world whether it be the world of a deceased victim an innocent victim or somebody who was injured by your wrongdoing I don’t know what your problem is. The following is a direct quote from my Facebook-“Not really here, praying for everybody involved in the Walmart shooting open let’s get this son of a bitch because of this havoc and hell for innocent people. Patrick Crusius- you will pay for taking lives and injuring others “ and I am tired of politicians making activity political fighter I’m tired of political tennis balls it’s insensitive and irrational-we need to focus on the individuals who were harmed or killed in these events instead of the politicians in control whether we like them or not